I’M NOT ALWAYS OKAY, AND THAT’S OKAY

Social media gives us this idea that everything needs to be okay with us 100% of the time. But honestly, that’s a load of crap.

Yes, I am a christian. Yes, I believe that I can pray to our mighty Savior to find peace and comfort. Yes, I am blessed with friends and family that love me. Yes, I have millions of things to be happy and grateful for. But no, that doesn’t mean I don’t struggle on the daily.

Honestly, I have felt guilty many times that I have such a great life, but can still feel down and melancholic. Which is ridiculous, I know.

I would compare my reasons of sadness to other people’s and if I felt my feelings weren’t as valid as theirs, I would tell myself to get over it. But let me tell you… this is an AWFUL mindset to have !!!! And I hope you never do that to yourself.

I’ve had to teach myself that my feelings are VALID. If I am upset because of the way someone treated me, or because life didn’t go as I had planned, that is okay. Unfortunately, not everyday is going to be filled with rainbows and butterflies.

To be honest, I’ve been in a gloomy state for the past couple weeks. Life has been throwing me curveballs left and right. It can be hard to be present in life and fully connect with those around me. It’s something that takes lots of energy and will power, but it’s not impossible. And that’s okay.

What I’m really trying to tell you all is that every single person on this planet finds themselves in seasons of sadness. It’s inevitable as human beings. That doesn’t mean that there’s anything wrong with us, or that we’re different from others.

If you are feeling down-hearted, I would first identify what you’re feeling, then assess the situation. Depending on who you are, you may just need to step back from your normal, social, cheery self and take a deep breath. Or maybe you need to keep that consistent human interaction to process and cope with the struggles. Whatever you need to do, do it. Even if the world is moving at 100 mph, don’t feel like you have to keep up. It’s okay to take things slow.

The way you take care of yourself and your health is the only thing that is really in your control. You can’t control the way the world treats you or the things that happen, no matter how much you plan. What you can do is focus on the way you react to life’s situations.

Pray for peace, comfort, and strength. Really think about what you’re feeling and why. Give yourself a break. You deserve it.

SPREADING POSITIVITY

Hey wonderful humans !!! It’s been a bit !! I’m sorry that I’ve been pretty MIA lately. Ever since the start of school, life has been absolutely crazy (as it usually is).

For the first month of the school year we had a family friend stay with us from Spain. It was so fun introducing her to the American lifestyle and to all my friends at school ! Ever since then it’s just been a nonstop kinda thing between school, work, my sister’s volleyball games, etc. etc.

BUT I know that there’s no excuse for me to not be posting on here so… I’m sorry !! In all honesty, it’s so easy for me to get caught up in the routine and forget what I’m really doing here on this earth.

As I’ve mentioned before, it’s easy for me to get caught up in the negativity that surrounds me on a regular basis (you can see where I’ve talked about it before right here). Of course, I’m totally guilty of providing that negativity at times, but that doesn’t mean I like it. However, I know that I enjoy life 1000x more when I’m optimistic !! This is where I struggle.

Yes, I love being optimistic and finding the joys of life in every situation, but I also can be easily influenced by the negativity at times. SO to solve this problem, I set goals for myself. I promised myself that I’ll use this year, my senior year of high school, to be a positive example to those around me.

This means that I will do my absolute best to show kindness and promote happiness in all situations. I know that me being the human I am, I won’t get this right every time. I’m still gonna have my negative moments and times of self doubt, BUT if I catch myself, I’ll turn my mindset around.

That being said, if you see me being negative, whether it’s in math class (my friend Anna knows that that’s a major struggle for me🤦🏽‍♀️), at work, online, or any area of my life, PLEASE call me out on it !! Just say something like, “hey aubry, how bout ya shut up and be positive?!” cause that will definitely catch my attention !!

Also, I highly encourage you to make your own goals to better yourself and really work towards them. Maybe even get an accountability partner to help ya out when life gets tough! My sister, Kayla, is that person for me! Life is so much more enjoyable when you’re chasing your dreams and reaching your goals, I promise !!

STAY POSITIVE, MY FRIENDS 💛💛